Saturday, July 11, 2009

The Struggle Continues

I am contemplating what I should cut out of my life to give myself more time. Time for what? Time for life. School and school-related things consume much of my time. Work also consumes much of my time, but I like my job. I also like sleeping and definitely can tell the difference in my daily functionality depending on how much sleep I got the night before. I also would like to take some time for me. Maybe a kickboxing class? Maybe some sightseeing (Tennessee still holds lots for me to see)? Maybe a movie, as my list of films I'd like to see grows every day.

So what do I remove in order to make more time to do/see/experience the stuff I want? Should I just pedal to the metal for the next year, graduate, then play? Can I make it for an entire year before complete meltdown? Can I lessen my stress over my school and work that I can open up and thoroughly enjoy little amounts of free time?

These are hypothetical (and probably rhetorical). I am writing these after a long 40-hour week (and I'm about to go put in another 2-hours for out Hallowed Ground tour...) so maybe they are just ramblings. I can't plan what my life will look like in a year, as I have no idea what this year will hold. I do know I can enjoy my time now, even the stressed-out, burnt-out, tired times. And I guess I can just plan to the best of my abilities for my immediate future and let tomorrow take care of itself.

Or at least make an effort to do that, anyway.


Scott said...

I wouldn't spend less time on the internet...

kristen said...

i know that i couldn't make it a year at that pace without a total meltdown. since you've been at it only a couple of months and are already questioning it, maybe you should find a way to have some more time to yourself and/or for relaxing with friends.

i think another class, even one like kickboxing, would frustrate me more as it would further restrict my schedule, but it may be just the thing for you--so you know you get that time. maybe see if you can do something like only work 30 or 35 hours one or two weeks a month? i don't know if something like that is possible. take a random day off in the middle of the week and drive to nashville? take an hour or two a week to move your internet time to a park or coffee shop, as a treat? maybe something as small as committing to read something entirely nonacademic for 30 minutes or so before you go to sleep every other night would help you to recharge? (some people do this by getting up early. so not my style as the snooze button always wins).

whatever your method, i hope you can find a way to get at least a little bit of quality "you time" each week. i know i require it to stay human!!

Liz said...

I happened to stumble upon your blog, and think that it sounded so familiar to my own life i had to "follow" it and comment, too. if you do end up taking a kickboxing class or something, let me know.

Nancy said...

Do the things you enjoy and pay a little more attention to what goes on around you. I think we sometimes find the answers are in front of us. You have so many gifts to explore. Enjoy!